Flash fiction: The Headsman’s block

Indies Unlimited, a wonderful site that supports independent authors, has a weekly flash fiction challenge. They post a photo and ask for 250-word stories. I’ve been thinking about doing it for a while and finally one came up that caught my interest: http://www.indiesunlimited.com/2013/09/07/flash-fiction-challenge-the-headsmans-block/. Here’s my story.

The Headman’s Block

They force me to my knees before the headsman’s block. My stomach churns, like I want to heave up last night’s roast venison. Is poaching a few deer so bad? A man deserves some comfort, don’t he? I breathe slowly and stare at the deep grooves criss-crossing the stump, thinking of all the other outlaws who lost their lives here. All but Robin, that is. No, not the Robin you’re thinking of. Robin of Mortwood Forest was his name and don’t you forget it. They don’t tell many tales about our Robin, but they should. He’s the only man to ever escape the block.

“Don’t worry about me,” Robin would say with that smirk of his. “They’ll never get my head. You know why? Because I believe, boys. I believe in the magic of the forest and it’s going to do right by me when the time comes.”

And darned if he didn’t speak the truth. They say the headsman swung his axe and Robin vanished, body, head, and all. They say that stump just swallowed him whole, like the forest spirits called him home. Wish I’d seen it.

Me, I’m trying to believe, but I’m not feeling anything from this here stump. I start praying to the forest gods and the trees and the leaves. Even the acorns. Sunlight glints on the axe. I’m not near as brave or smart as Robin, but I’ve had a good life, haven’t I? I close my eyes and lower my head.

Thunk.

Doubting monkey on my shoulder

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You think he’s cute but he’ll pounce when you least expect it.

Someone asked recently what I thought was the hardest part about writing. Honestly, sometimes the hardest part is the actual writing. Why is it so hard? Fear. It’s fear of Not Being Good Enough. I have a habit of composing brilliant scenes in my head that never come out quite right when I type up the words. I’ll send a chapter through my critique group who might like it and offer some good suggestions for improving it further, but when I sit down to work on my edits the only thing I can focus on is the quality of the writing because to me, it falls short. I’m probably my own worst critic. Even when I think something is initially good, that doubting monkey on my shoulders whispers, “But it it’s not good enough. It could be better.” And thus begins the downward spiral of not being able to write because it will never be good enough and if it’s not good enough should I even try?

Well, I try because I’m compelled to write. Other writers understand that feeling. I have to push aside the doubting monkey (don’t worry, no animals are actually harmed) and tell myself that it may not be perfect, but yes, it’s good. My publisher thought so. I have readers who think so. So I just have to push through the doubt and keep on writing. I’m not sure there’s any other solution than that. Write a paragraph. Repeat, until you have written a page. Then repeat again.

My five-year-old has been talking about what she wants to be when she grows up. (For the record, it’s currently a teacher, a princess, a ballet teacher, and a princess teacher. I’m sure pink will be involved.) She asked me what I had wanted to be when I was little. I’ve wanted to be an author forever. When I told her this, she looked at me and said, “And now you are.”

Yes, I am an author. It’s still an amazing feeling. I hope I can keep on doing it.

Do you ever feel this way about your writing? What are some of your tips for working through writing doubt?

Summer Lovin’ Blog Hop: A summer of reading

Today I’m blogging about summer memories. I’m a fall/winter person, and I hate the heat and humidity we get here in the Mid-Atlantic, but I do love summer treats like ice cream and popsicles, sandals and bare feet, lazing about on a summer afternoon, twilight that seems to stretch on forever, and catching fireflies. My favorite summer memories are of being a kid and playing outside all summer long. That was back in the dark ages, before computers and the internet, even before VCRs, back when we were let loose on the neighborhood and didn’t have to come home until it was dark (yes, I’m old). We’d ride our bikes around and use our imagination to play cops and robbers or Star Wars or house, or we’d have a parent drive us to the town beach to go swimming. Often we’d engage in my favorite summer (and all year round) pastime: reading.

When I was a kid our local library had a summer reading program. You’d get a sheet to record all the books you read and every 10 books or so they would recognize your accomplishment by putting your name up on a special wall display for the event. I usually needed at least one extra sheet because I read so many books. A group of us kids on our street would get a blanket, bring our books outside, and sit and read together. I don’t think this was related to the library event. We just liked to read.

Once I decided we should start our own library. As a budding author I had the brilliant idea that we’d write all of the books ourselves. I might have been eight or nine. I’d already written a book as part of the library reading program because you got to do a project that was put on display at the library. I wrote (and poorly illustrated) a brilliant piece of fiction called “The Rebels Strike Back,” my take on Star Wars. The neighborhood library never did get off the ground. I think we ended up with five or six books, most written by me about my stuffed animals. But by then I knew I would write my own books someday. It just took a little longer than I expected.

I still have vivid memories of that library and the young adult section in the basement. I spent a lot of time perusing those shelves. It was strange when I finally moved upstairs to the adult and non-fiction section, mostly to do school research. Eventually the library was renovated, but it’s those young adult books that fueled my initial love of reading and writing.

What are some of your favorite summer memories? In addition to the blog hop prizes, I’ll be giving away a $5 Amazon gift card to one lucky commenter! All you have to do is leave a comment any time during June 14-17. Please include your email!

Drop by any of the participating blogs below for other fun giveaways and be sure to enter the Rafflecopter giveaway for these great prizes:

Grand Prize: A Kindle Paperwhite and some of our eBooks to read on it!

1st Prize: A $20 Amazon gift card, and a Swag Pack that contains paperbacks, more eBooks, bookmarks, cover flats, magnets, pens, and more!

Participating blogs:

Shawna Romkey Author blog
Constance Phillips, A Writer’s Musings
Katie O’Sullivan
Summer Lovin’ – On Olympus…
Kate’s Blog
Kary Rader
Lindsey R. Loucks
Summer Lovin’, postcards, and maybe bookmarks
Jody A Kessler Summer Lovin’ Mountain Style
Official Website of Maer Wilson
Author Jean Murray ~ Wicked Romance Blog
Summer Lovin’ Heat
Hildie McQueen’s Author Site
Loni Lynne’s Blog Site
Author Avery Olive Blog
Wendy S. Russo
Cindy Young-Turner
Michelle Clay – The Darkside of Romance
the Marvelous Misadventures of Mrs. t
Shannon Eckrich

Author interview: Maer Wilson

I’ve very pleased to have Maer Wilson on the blog today. Maer’s novel, Relics, was just released this month and looks to be another outstanding novel from Crescent Moon Press! Let’s take a look at Relics and then move on to the interview questions.

Relics 200x300Blurb:

Most of Thulu and La Fi’s clients are dead. Which is perfect since their detective agency caters to the supernatural. So, a job finding relics for an ancient daemon should be simple.

The daemon needs the relics to keep a dangerous portal closed. His enemy, Gabriel, wants the relics to open the portal and give his people access to a new feeding ground – Earth.

Stunning humanity with their existence, portals to other worlds begin to open and the creatures of magic return to Earth.

When Gabriel threatens their family, Thulu and La Fi’s search becomes personal. The couple will need powerful allies in the race to find the relics before Gabriel does. But maybe that’s what grateful dead, magical allies and daemonic clients are for. 

When the creatures of myth and magic return to Earth, they’re nothing like your mother’s fairy tales.

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Interview with Maer

Thank you for letting me visit today!

Q: Where were you born? Are you the kind of person who likes to move around a lot, or do you prefer to live in one place?

A: I was born in Kansas, but spent very little time there as my father was in the Air Force and we moved around a lot when I was really young. Maybe that’s why I prefer to stay in the same place, now. I do enjoy traveling, but love coming home to my own house when it’s done.

Q: What sparked your interest in writing? How long have you been writing?

A: Since I was young and in school. I’ve mostly written character studies and things like that. Bad poetry in high school. About twelve years ago I tried my hand at writing a play. It was awful. Five years later I recreated it as a screenplay that was much better. It was only three years ago that I decided to try a novel and here I am.

Q: What provided the inspiration for your newly released novel, Relics?

A: That came out of a gaming experience. I’d had an idea about a married heroine in a Paranormal novel, but hadn’t done anything more than jot down a note. I created the names Thulu and La Fi to give to some gaming friends of mine, but realized the names belonged to my characters instead. And who they were fully formed in my head very quickly.

Q: How long did it take you to finish it? How many drafts did you write before you were satisfied?

A: The first draft took five weeks to write. I revised it, had it beta read, revised some more and started to submit it. After about eight months, I found out that a cliff hanger ending for a first novel was an almost impossible sell, so I ruthless ripped out the second half of the book and completely rewrote it, making it a standalone novel. Again, I wrote that very fast. By the time I revised, rewrote and added more beta readers, it was a little over a year after I first started writing it the first time that it was ready for submission again. I can’t even say how many times I revised, rewrote and tweaked this last version. I’d get an idea and run to add it or change something. I’d probably still be tweaking if I could. J

Q: How would you describe your path toward publication?

A: I did the usual “find an agent” thing for about ten months. Because that’s what we do right? We get an agent. At first, I was hopeful, but as I learned more about the publishing industry, I quickly devised a Plan B: apply to a small press and forget about the agent. The more I found out about the traditional route, the more I realized it wasn’t for me. Mostly due to the time. Being olderish, I didn’t want my book to take two to three years to see print. So, I almost began to look forward to agent rejections. Almost. Once I’d decided I really wanted a small press, I began researching and found a few I liked. Crescent Moon Press was my first choice. Of course, after agent rejections my confidence wasn’t very high and I had no expectations. I was so pleased when I heard from them very quickly to submit and it wasn’t long before they offered a contract. I’m thrilled to be a part of the CMP family.

Q: Do you have any advice for aspiring writers?

A: Read everything you can get your hands on, especially in your genre. And make sure your manuscript is the best you can make it. I think too many new writers are in such a hurry that they don’t take advantage of the tweaking and revising that will make their work even better. Revising time is important and the polishing could make the difference between getting published or not.

Q: Name a few authors who have inspired you and describe why.

A: Tim Powers because he encouraged me to write and I adore his style. George R.R. Martin for his ability to surprise me and J.K. Rowling for her storytelling talent.

Q: What are you currently writing?

A: Do interviews and blogs count? J Seriously, I’m doing a final revision of Book 2 in The Thulukan Chronicles, Portals, before I submit it. And I’ve started Book 3 of the series.

Q: You also run the increasingly popular MythBehaving podcast. How did you get involved in podcasting?

A: Thanks for asking about that, Cindy! I began writing for a gaming fansite, Corellian Run Radio about a year and a half ago and they also do a podcast. As one of the staff writers, I’ve participated in many of the podcasts. When I sold my book to CMP, Carla Clifton, who runs CRR suggested doing a literary podcast. It just took off from there.

Q: Coffee, tea, or hard liquor? (or all three?)

A: Herbal tea and hard liquor. Not mixed together.

Q: What books are you currently reading or on your to-be-read list?

 A: I’m almost done with Lindsey R. Loucks’ The Grave Winner. I was very lucky and received an Advanced Reader Copy and I love it. Next will be Mila 2.0 by Debra Driza.

Q: And now for the bonus fluff question: If you could be a character in your one of your favorite novels, which character would you be and why?

 A: Oh, I love this question! So many to choose from, but I think I’ll go back to one of my early loves and the Anne McCaffrey Dragonrider series. Lessa captured me years ago. Since I love dragons and Lessa bonded with her queen dragon she would have to be the one.

Cindy, thanks so very much for letting me do your interview!

Thanks so much for stopping by!

Bio:

Maer AuthorAfter a successful career being other people, and later teaching others the many tricks of that trade, Maer Wilson has decided to be herself for a while. Turns out she’s a writer. She’s always loved stories, especially fantasy, mystery and sci fi. Maer was born in the Year of the Dragon and has a dragon-themed room in her home, but sadly no dragons in the back yard. When she’s not writing, Maer plays online video games, teaches college and reads. She also co-hosts the literary podcast, “MythBehaving” and writes for two gaming fansites. She lives in the high desert of Southern Nevada with her two dogs, a chihuahua and a poodle. Relics is her first novel and will be released by Crescent Moon Press on May 1, 2013. You can visit her website at maerwilson.com.

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A reformed pantser?

I’ve been a proud pantser for a while. No outlines for me. I just write and the story comes out. Sometimes. I do a fair amount of rewriting along the way as things unfold and the plot becomes clearer. It’s a bit scary to write without knowing exactly where I’m going, but it’s worked for me. Every time I’ve tried to write an outline, I’ve failed to follow it. It’s just too constrictive.

Until now, that is.

I think it’s safe to say that Thief of Destiny is a bit more complex than Thief of Hope. The scale is much bigger, the stakes are higher, there are two points of view instead of just one. A big theme is that nothing is black and white and the lines between good and evil are murky. I recently came to a point in the book where I realized I had to come up with a plan for moving forward. There’s a war going on and I couldn’t simply pull a battle strategy out of my head without some planning. I’ve gone through much mulling it over, gnashing of teeth, many emails back and forth with my wonderful critique group for ideas, research, and I think I finally have a plan. I’ve even started working on *gasp* an outline. This time I need an outline if I’m going to sync up certain events in the book. I think it’s going to work.

I still don’t know everything that’s going to happen. I can’t write that detailed of an outline. Am I a reformed pantser? Maybe not quite yet. I’ll let you know how it goes when I get to the end of the book.