First author appearance jitters

I have my first author appearance in less than a week. I’ll be at the Baltimore Book Festival, doing a panel on ebooks and the changing nature of publishing, a book signing, and a reading. This is of course a dream come true, to be participating in a book festival as an author, but I’m getting more nervous as the days go by. I hate public speaking. You’d think reading from my own work would be easy (don’t I know all the words by heart now?), but the thought of standing up in front of a crowd give me cold chills. And I do hope there will be at least a small crowd. I’ve recruited a few warm bodies to attend my reading, and with any luck there will be some people I don’t know, maybe new Thief of Hope fans.

My first trial reading to my critique group didn’t go over well. I only got through a couple paragraphs before they made me stop and regroup and rethink my approach. Then we went around the table and everyone read the same paragraphs, much better than I did, I’ll admit. At least that helped me understand what I was doing wrong and gave me some direction. So now it’s practice practice practice. And remember to breathe. And try to look at the audience. And not mispronounce words. And…

Got any tips for a nervous new author? Aside from keeping a flask handy to calm my nerves.

10 years…

I’ve no desire to watch the 9/11 ten year anniversary events. I lived not far from Washington, DC, slightly closer than now on that day, and I will never forget how the world changed, suddenly, horrifically. Home sick, phone call from husband saying a plane has hit the World Trade Center. Turn on the TV and sit there watching, stunned. The plane hits the Pentagon. Lots of sirens. Call my mom in Massachusetts, who has already left me a message on my office voice mail. Call my boss. They are all okay but in shock, not really doing any work and can’t go home because roads are shut down and the area is gridlocked. Call my friend in DC, who has just started graduate school, is home alone, and doesn’t have a TV, only internet. Call my friend in Pennsylvania because I have no idea where she is in relation to Shanksville. Check in with other friends, realize none of us knows where exactly our friend in New York works, only that she’s at a bank downtown. Watch the towers fall. Cry when my husband gets home from work later that night, in time to watch another newscast and see the replay of the plane hit the tower yet again, and think about how many husbands, wives, fathers, mothers, friends, sons, daughters, sisters, brothers never make it home that day. Relief the next day when we hear from NY friend that she’s safe. Sadness as the days pass and we realize there will be no survivors. A struggle to return to “normal” because normal no longer seems to exist.

I’ve seen it, lived it, been forever altered by what happened that day. Someday my daughter, now three, will read about what happened in a textbook. She’ll never really understand. At the time I didn’t understand the reactions of my friends who were parents because they seemed so unaffected. I know that wasn’t true—they were just being strong for their kids. Now I get that.

So instead of watching the footage that has been burned into my soul, I’d rather watch a giggling three-year-old spin around in her new sparkly red shoes. Because if I don’t laugh, I’ll be crying. This is the kind of hope and joy we need to hold onto. Ten years, twenty years, it doesn’t matter. We will never forget.

Author interview – M. L. Doyle

This is the first in what I hope will be an ongoing series of interviews with some talented authors, showcasing them and their fabulous books.

I'm Still StandingPlease welcome M. L. Doyle, co-author of I’m Still Standing: From Captive U.S. Soldier to Free Citizen – My Journey Homewhich chronicles the story of Shoshana Johnson, a member of the 507th Maintenance Company who was captured during an ambush and held prisoner in the early days of the Iraq War. Published by Touchstone in 2010, the book was recently nominated for an NAACP Image Award in the literary category for best Auto/biography. Mary and I belong to the Novel Experience critique group and I’ve had the privilege of also reading her novels. You will want to keep an eye on this author!

Now on to our questions.

Q: Where were you born? How many places have you lived? Are you the kind of person who likes to move around a lot, or do you prefer to live in one place?

A: I was born in Minneapolis, Minnesota, raised in a little town called Excelsior, but spent most of my adult years in Minneapolis. Like most people, my hometown was the one place I didn’t want to stay the rest of my life. I always wanted to live elsewhere. Part of the reason why I joined the Army was to travel and see the world. While I was in the Army Reserve I went to a lot of different places…Honduras, Guatemala, Bosnia, Panama, Thailand. When I had an opportunity to move to Germany and work for the Army as a civilian there, I took it. I ended up staying there for seven years. It was a great opportunity to travel. I traveled so much in fact, my time at home was less than my time away from home living out of a suitcase. Poland, Egypt, Bulgaria, England, the list goes on and on. After seven years, I returned to the states, then took a job in Seoul, Korea and lived there for eighteen months. Now I live in Baltimore, Maryland and if I’m completely honest, I’d really love to move back to Minneapolis, Minnesota.  It’s funny really. I’ve traveled most of the world, only to discover home is where I really want to be.

Q: What sparked your interest in writing? How long have you been writing?

A: I didn’t concentrate on getting a degree until I was in my late twenties, which ended up being a good thing since I was mature enough to really understand what I wanted to study…and writing was something I wanted to study. For some reason, taking a class was the mechanism I needed to actually put word to page, even though I’d been composing stories in my head forever. I took a couple of creative writing classes and wrote a bunch of short stories.  I also took a couple of screenwriting classes and wrote a feature length screenplay. In all those years, I was writing short fiction, never once thinking I would write a novel. It wasn’t until I took an adult education class at a local college that I finally found the motivation to try a novel. I took a class called Mystery Writing for Beginners. We were supposed to end the course by writing a short mystery.  My short story turned into my first novel, Peacekeeper’s Photograph.

Q: Tell us about your experience as a ghost writer. What was it like working with someone to write their story?

A: I wonder now if I would have accepted the project if I had understood how intense it would be. To sit and listen to someone else’s story, a story that is very personal, revealing, and filled with all of the triumphs and humiliations any life holds, and have that person trust you with all of their secrets is very humbling. Then, to have this person look to you to tell that story in a way that will make their sacrifice worth the effort, well the pressure was and is something that never leaves you. After I finished the project with Shoshana, I said I wouldn’t do it again. To be a ghost writer of memoirs is like being a cross between a physiatrist and a gossip columnist. Your client reveals every deep, dark secret to you, only to have you tell the world about it in your pages. I’m telling you, the responsibility is enough to keep you up at night!  When my second ghost writing project came along, I didn’t hesitate. I accepted the job. Now, I’m back to the…I don’t ever want to do that again…phase, but that might change.  Depends on the person and the story they want to tell I think.

Q: How long did it take you to finish the book? How many drafts did you write before you were satisfied?

A: Simon and Schuster gave me a deadline to meet. When your first publisher gives you a deadline, you had better meet it. I was offered the project in January, awarded the project in February and had to have a finished draft to them by August. I was living in Korea at the time, working full time and petrified by how ignorant I was of what I was doing. I’d never written my own memoir, let alone anyone else’s. The six month deadline meant I had no personal life at all. I took three day weekends every chance I could, spent every holiday, evening, weekend, every spare moment doing nothing but writing. People would ask me what I was doing for the weekend. I’d say, “Ass in chair, fingers on keyboard.” I sent Shana pages as chapters were finished and rewrote in her changes and suggestions as we went along.  By about month four, I had a first draft. She sent me photos she wanted to include.  I wrote cutlines for them. I gave the entire manuscript a complete rewrite but the book pretty much kept the same shape as the first draft. Most of the changes were about style and voice. I sent it through a line editor and through my agent, before we sent it to the editor at S&S. The editor had a few changes and additions she wanted but for the most part, the fourth draft is the one that was published.

Q: How would you describe your path toward publication?

A: Circuitous. I’d written a mystery and used that to find my agent. My wonderful agent, while shopping the novel around, ran across this ghost writing project. Did I ever think I would be ghost writing memoirs? HELL no. I wanted to write novels. Now here I am with two ghost written memoirs, one published and two mysteries which still don’t have a publishing home. In many ways, I feel as if Shana’s project was a gift. If I can publish something else, I’ll feel like a REAL writer!

Q: Congratulations on your NAACP Image Award nomination! What an honor! What was it like to walk the red carpet?

A: Totally surreal. Of course, so much of the evening was lost to me because I was so nervous about the award announcement. When we didn’t win, I could relax and really enjoy myself. It really is true when they say, just being nominated is honor enough. It would have been cool to win, but just being there, meeting so many interesting people, finding out just how real and friendly so many of the stars really are…it was all just a magical experience. I felt humbled and honored and still so totally freaked out that the book received that kind of recognition. It felt good to know that my efforts are what brought Shana out to enjoy the evening as well.

Q: Do you have any advice for aspiring writers?

A: Write. Stop waiting for the right time, the new computer, the outline to be done or even the great idea to come along. Just put word to page and see what happens.

Q: Name a few authors who have inspired you and why.

A: Dick Francis – his mysteries make me feel like I’m settling down to a comfortable cup of hot chocolate and a blanket.  David Liss – his historical fiction mesmerizes me. Steven Pressfield – love the way he describes the soldier’s life through the centuries. His battle scenes are so well drawn you can almost smell the sweat and blood. Jim Butcher – love his modern day wizard story.  I could go on and on.

Q: Tell us about your current writing project.

A: I just finished a ghost writing project called General Mom, about the first African American female brigadier general of the line in the Army National Guard. Her life is full of triumph and tragedy and a story I think most will find inspiring. I’m working on what I hope to be the final rewrite of the second book in the Master Sergeant Lauren Harper series called The Engineer’s Tomb.After that, I think I’ll rest : ).

Q: Coffee, tea, or hard liquor? (or all three?)

A: Coffee and wine…a full bodied, dark red wine.

Q: What books are you currently reading or on your to-be-read list?

A: I’ve been reading a ton of fantasy lately. Right now, my Kindle is turned to a book called Pagan, about a guy’s guy who leads a team embroiled in a vampire war in England. Totally mindless paranormal fun. I’m totally into the over the top, vampire war, zombie war, gangster shoot ‘em up, superpowered superhuman stuff. I’ll read that stuff while having a mani-pedi and considering what dress to wear to dinner. Like the macho but I’m still a girl.

Q: And now for the bonus fluff question: If you could be a character in your one of your favorite novels, which character would you be and why?

A: What woman wouldn’t want to be Claire Fraiser in Diana Gabaldon’s Outlander series? Six-foot plus, two hundred pound, red headed, ax wielding, Highlander. Hellooo! (I totally agree!)

Thanks so much for stopping by, Mary!

M.L. DoyleM. L. Doyle has served in the U.S. Army at home and abroad for more than two decades as both a soldier and civilian. A Minneapolis native, Mary currently lives in Baltimore, Maryland. She is the co-author of I’m Still Standing: From Captive U.S. Soldier to Free Citizen – My Journey Homepublished by Touchstone in 2010. Mary is currently working on a mystery series featuring Master Sergeant Lauren Harper, an Army public affairs specialist who travels the world on Army business only to find herself embroiled in one dangerous situation after another. The first book of the series, The Peacekeeper’s Photograph, takes place in a small Army outpost during the Bosnian Peacekeeping mission. The Peacekeeper’s Photograph, which is yet unpublished, was the winner of the Carey McCray Memorial Literary Award for best novel from the South Carolina Writer’s Workshop. Mary is hard at work on editing the second book in the series, The Engineer’s Tomb. She also blogs for the Write Workshop at http://thewriteworkshop.wordpress.com.

Mother Nature’s fury

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We were lucky here in Maryland to have been spared the worst of Hurricane Irene. I was feeling annoyed about having been without power for 24 hours. Almost worse than not having electricity was feeling isolated with no internet, TV, or radio. We’d just experienced a major hurricane that was barreling up the east coast and I had no way of knowing how bad it had been in other parts of the state, let alone other states. Then I finally got back online and heard from friends in other parts hit much harder who could be without power for the rest of the week. Roads are flooded, people stranded, houses washed away. My 24 hours don’t seem so bad now.

The interesting thing was that as we dealt with our darkened homes and wondered how to amuse ourselves, people in the neighborhood started coming outside. People actually talked with each other. Granted, our neighborhood is friendly in general, but we’re often so busy we don’t see each other except when there is a snowstorm and we’re shoveling out our cars. It’s too bad it takes a crisis to bring us all together.

I also noticed as I was walking the dog before bedtime how very dark it was. No streetlights, no houses lit up or porch lights on. It’s nice to actually see the night sky, especially since the night before Mother Nature’s fury was bearing down on us. But I’m not used to it being that dark. I think in the twenty-first century we take a lot for granted and don’t often think about how powerful and frightening nightfall must have been for those who didn’t have the advantage of electric light. It’s really a different kind of darkness than what we’re used to in suburbia, where the sky always has a glow from the city lights. In my book there are a number of scenes where characters are sneaking around at night in a medieval-like city where lights are few and far between. I imagine that would be a harrowing experience, especially being pursued by multiple enemies. Fortunately we can put the book down and go back to checking email and sleep in a nice soft bed, then wake up and have a hot breakfast and coffee. A lot of people around the world in this century still can’t say that, and still live in fear and darkness. Remembering that every now and then is a good thing. We are lucky indeed.